还是感恩

因为我是双鱼座，所以很多时候，我可以是乐观的，我也可以是悲观的。

从懂事以来，我承认很多时候，我都把自己藏在那卑微凄惨的世界里，为的只是需要那份该死的同情。但是就在前几年加入了阿毛，认识了许多来自地球多个角落的网友。对，就是网友。

但是我很肯定的就是，这些网友不再是我们所谓的网上之交那么的简单了。我们已经晋升了不再陌生的朋友。我不敢相信，我真的不敢相信，我是这么的幸运。 就是这一群这么真诚的朋友，我那藏在卑微凄惨的世界里的我竟然自自然然的走出来了。我没有像以前那么的胆小怕事，虽然比别人还是差一大载，但是这一切是真的。我不敢相信，我们这一群朋友，就算是一顿饭聚在一起，真的比起那其他364天来得更充实。

我怀念以前一上班就赶着打开电脑等着每个人的update,

我怀念以前和阿猪的午餐，

我怀念以前我们时常在阿毛里废的日子，哪怕是只有一篇无理头的文章，

我记得阿萨的junior在晒太阳，

我怀念的还有很多很多。。。。

或许我们都长大了，一切都改变了，但是有时候我真的不得谢天谢地，这群朋友虽然不是时常见面，但是我们的喜怒哀乐还真的不需要说出口，大家就是那么的心知肚明。或许我们那一年就只有见那么一次的面，但是我们在那一顿饭真的还是会喋喋不休。自问当下，我还有什么不满足的呢？

感谢老天爷，原来我不是被忽略的那一个，原来我不是什么都没有，至少山穷水尽的时候，还有一群围绕在握身边的家人和朋友。

感恩~

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Stay tuned to the new FISHU ~

BO GAI ~

Pisces baby's big day coming very soon ~

My dear porku countdown her wedding album shooting trip on her msn tagline~

2 days to go ~

it will be 4th of March, which is my birthday as well ~

2 days to go, i have to say babye to 23 ~ and i'm one step closer to 25. People say age is a weapon to kill a woman. I used to refuse to agree this statement, but now, I just can't refuse it anymore, I have to admit it. And these years, I started to worry about it. I realized that I should start using aging products before everything's late.

Talk about my birthday, I wish this year will not be the same like last year ~ Hopefully it will not be another regretful birthday. I'm not gonna demand any celebrations from friends or relatives, but I do wish to have a perfect dinner with FG. Same like previous year, I can't apply leave to get a well rest at home or chilling out to some shopping malls. Just like normal days, I need to work ~~~~ Arrrgggghhh ~~~ Life is not always on my way...

FG asked me how shall we celebrate... Horrrrrrrrr... This is a difficult Q and I dun really wan to answer even answers were in my mind ~ Yes, I use plural for "answer" ! Cos I have a lot of ideas which I know I'm not gonna do it all in one day ~ More on it, I am a Pisces baby ~ I always expect romantic surprise and I hate things happen by my own request ~ FG still can't read my mind, horrrrr... Accept it, cos he is a scorpion ~ So if things not gonna request by my own, I know it wont be happen anyway ~ This is not a COMPLAIN ~ but to tell myself to accept the fact that Pisces dreaming was way tooooooo farrrrrrrr and Scorpion is a cool bu sexy person ~~~~~~~~ But they do matching to each other according to lots of horoscope books.

God, please make my working day goes smooth so I can be home on time on this coming Thursday. =))))))

情人节

2010年的情人节就这样无声无息的过了~~~

我们的第5个情人节

一样。。。

没有惊喜

没有花束

没有礼物

没有节目

只有

埋怨，

无奈，

羡慕。

我应该再寄望下一个情人节吗？

黎明

人啊，总是有喜有悲；

人生，总是起起跌跌。

我们能埋怨多少呢？

与其浪费我们那有钱也买不到的时间来埋怨东东南南西西北北，

倒不如接受自己的人生，自己的现况，未来还未知数，人生还未到尽头。

好啦，我承认啦， 我有时也很悲观，半夜还是偶尔会躲在某一个角落流泪，

外加一个大枕头让我放声呐喊， 但是我很厉害哦，哭完了之后，

我还会自己安慰自己 ！！！ 我真的不是一条普通笨的鱼。

“因为黑夜，所以我看见晴天”

我最喜欢这一句了，还真的很贴切，很写实。

以前还很笨，很幼稚的时候，总会自己问自己这句有够无聊的quote是虾米意属~

还会自己回答自己，“hello, 人家的人生永远都没有黑夜的， 只有晴天和彩虹~”

就因为这个无知兼自以为是的自答， 我足足活在几年的黑夜~

后来就因为看了很多因果书籍，再过滤老妈告诉我的故事，再再外加一些连续剧，

其实我只不过一直埋怨黑夜，却没有想到晴天根本就是在黑夜之后才会出现啊~

白天和黑夜的那个交集，其实只在于我们怎样去领悟。

人生啊，也一样~

或许你觉得当下的生活遇到瓶颈，凡事好像都不顺利，

但是为何不去释怀一下，如果没有寂静冷清的黑夜，你又怎样体验那暖和微香的阳光？

事情总是来得匆忙，当下一定会来个措手不及，这是理说当然的。

当下会不开心是一定的啦，但是一定要告诉自己，

就是因为这些阻隔物，跳过了就结束了。

没有吃亏，至少我的人生还多了一个故事，我的人生不是空白的。

或许有些事情需要较长的时间来消化，但是一样的，

这种考验一定会为我们的智慧加分~

虽然此时此刻，人生中还是有很多遗憾，当下不至于无忧无虑，

但是我还在黑夜里等待黎明，等待曙光放明的那一刻~

惰性成迷

惨了

这下惨了

觉得自己开始懒惰起来了

对什么都不感兴趣

就一直横尸走肉的过生活

以往的目标好像停顿了

哪一条路才是自己要的呢？

我不得不承认， 鱼公真的宠我得过于离谱了

这下好了，人变懒了

阿鱼，加油！

最近总是觉得气势不如虹

但是还是不遂我那馋嘴的坏习惯

这下可好了

刚刚和友人starbuck-ed

回到家肚子痛到要生要死

上大号， 结果便便全都是浮在水面的， 恶心~

证明了咖啡也有排便的用处~

不晓得是不是PMS的关系

最近总是觉得很懊恼

做什么事情都很pek cek

尤其是公司的事情，一波未停，一波又起，

tasks一直排着队，搞得我很累

也不想和谁多讲话，话忽然变少，

身心疲累，心情也跟着变孬

甚至连最爱的烘培也被我搁置了

或许我敏感吧

再加上早前家里的装修

或许感觉已不再了

但是我还是很努力的生活，很努力的让自己比上一秒钟更为开心

我答应，

下个entry我要再show off 我的talent ~

再次让潜水的你们继续支持我~~~

=))))))

典型双鱼

还记得以前小学，每逢年尾时，老师会分派每人一份年终报告卡，不是成绩册哦，

确确实实是一张报告卡。

卡上有分别记载了从一年级到六年级的终年报告，终年的平均成绩，年纪总名次，

其实我的成绩还真的马马虎虎，不算标青，但也不是成绩满江红的那一类，

事实我的名次就是限于第二班~

看回这张显黄的报告册，我不得不承认，我的确是个典型的双鱼座女孩。

(所以我还真的很喜欢别人叫我阿鱼，够贴切~)

双鱼座的特性就是大家公认的爱幻想，悲观，凡事都是往最坏的打算。

从志愿栏那里一看，我的first choice of ambition就是作家，再来就是教师，最后就是工程师。

但是从现在的阿鱼来看，没错，link 到~

到现在我还是一样喜欢写作，家里的奖座还是写作比赛尤多。

就是因为那些惊人的想象能力

朋友们不得不承认我的幻想能力真的不是普通的厉害

所以，我还是我

我还是那个典型的双鱼女

我还是阿鱼

接踵而来

最近真的失意到不行

其实失意的还不就是工作

除了工作之外，其他的生活细节，

我都过得特别充实，

鱼公虽然有时很不听话，可是他还是会在我不高兴的时候迁就我

感恩~

家人还是那么的维护我，

感恩 ~

朋友们还是那么的体贴我，

感恩 ~

最近 工作上的不如意事

接踵而来

以我平时开朗的性格，乐观的思想

都不能随欲而安

老实说

我真的累了

我不是那种为所欲为，无力取闹的人

凡事我都能忍

可是我真的忍无可忍了~

从前， 我能笨笨的忍

可是现在在这么熟练的工作环境之下

我真的不能就这样忍气吞声

为什么认错的那个是我？

我累了

这次我轰出去了

士可杀，不可辱

如果我不是双鱼座

我就不会时常都缺乏安全感

我就不会时常都忐忑不安

我就不会一直想要有个人陪

我就不会想东想西

我就不会犹豫

我就不需要努力的伪装自己

我也不用一直被爱的卷缩在某个角落

我也不用过度关心别人

我也不用怜惜别人胜过自己

。。。

很久就摆脱了悲观，

如今，悲观这个老朋友又来了~

有时真的很难肯定自己的存在；

有时也很难肯定自己的立场。

六个月，这六个月发生了很多事情～

不如意的，以为就这样结束，

结果还是一波未停一波又起，

自己也无法对自己释怀～

很需要一份安全感，

也很需要一份珍惜，

需要一份别人送来的礼物，哪怕是一颗糖果，

我想我还是可以因为它笑着睡着。

努力，还是努力，

可是没有得到赏识，

反而得到了无谓的批评，

没有努力的人却一直享受赞赏。

是观点的问题？还是不公一直就处在努力的人身上？

没有答案。。。

挣扎，

一直垂死挣扎，

就算多痛苦，

告诉自己拼下去~

可是此时此刻，

找不到平衡点~

需要平衡点吗？

不知道~

一直以来，对谁都尽量报喜不报忧，

压抑自己的不悦，

不想为别人增加烦恼，

或许这种牺牲小我，

换来只有自己的星球，

宇宙外的生物都听不见我的呐喊，

遥远，

很遥远，

我的呐喊是多么的刺耳，

宇宙外或许只听见我的细语~

Baked Bluberry Cheesecake

banana muffin

Sweet Potato Soup with glutinous ball

One day after our dinner, I was so craving for this glutinous ball.  Moreover, mom bought alot of sweet potatoes..so without any hesitation, I asked mom how to make sweet potatoes soup. I never tried to cooked sweet soup 'tong shui糖水' before. This is the first time I cooked sweet soup !!! 

Manatao, sweet soup very easy to cook lar... 

Pandan Leaf, sweet potatoes, one big ketul of ginger, 2 cups of sugar...

Boiled the pandan leaf and ginger first, then throw the sweet potatoes into the pot to be boil with the pandan leaf and ginger...when it's almost cooked, add in sugar... Gaodim!!! 

Then I found that Meiji cracker is way nice to eat with sweet soup ~ 

Peanut filing punya glutinus ball ~

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Millions of pics awaiting to dress up...


Give me sometimes......

Weekly theme - LAMB CHOP

Spot the edited pic? Fish, I have to surrender to this stuff, I really have no patience on editing my pics, that's why I owned a very boring baliah blog ~ =P

This entry supposed to be long long time ago, as it passed over more than a month, it's KS's birthday ~ Hooray ~ And LampLamb Chop was the theme of the week... Yeah !!!


pictures first, captions later =)


Happy Belated Birthday to KS ~



LampLamb Chop
Dad marinate it with his special recipe~ I think I can't find this taste in anywhere else.



Stir Fried Onions
I made this actually ~
You just can't imagine how sweet it is... Arghh, I miss it badly...




Fried Chicken
Yes, again with my dad special marinate sauce ~ LOL



Some other foods which I did not captured, Coleslaw, Whipped Potato, Roast Lamb Leg which my dad had sliced it and last but not least the Chicken Gravy ~
Slurping while typing this...



My Selections, Fried chicken wing is a must order to me !!! and the HP sauce ~
Slurping again ~



Why the kids look so stress when taking photo ? LOL....



More photos ahead, but I need to upload it to photobucket first ~ Stay tuned for more foods !!!


=P

Marble Cheesecake

UPDATES !!!


Sorry for lack updates, my router was out of service. Am still looking for the warranty to be claimed. So I am just able to update FISHU in my office. Sigh, kesian, my lappie abandoned by me again~

I was supposed on my way to bank, but heavy rain outside, so force to postpone my trip to bank and I AM HERE ~

As usual, I still bake and cook on weekend, and my Weekend Theme still run as usual ~

So hereby present you guys my Marble Cheesecake ~

Picture first, captions later ya ~ ^^


Marble Cheesecake ~



I think I should aim a new oven for myself, the outlook was not perfect as what I expected...



Overall, it's taste nice and the sweetness is just nice it to the senior members in my family ~ =)



Hmm, to think I should use 7' mould on next attempt~



=)

Mini BBQ Party during Earth Hour, CONFIRMED !

We are going to held a Mini Bbq during the Earth Hour !!! Yeah !!!

Mom just agreed to make it on 8.30pm-9.30pm.

BBQ !!! BBQ !!! Yes !!!

• chicken wings
• sausages
• sweet corns
• sweet potatoes
• potatoes
• mashmallows
• fish balls
• mutton
• mussels
• and bla bla bla

Nyam nyam......... Can't wait for it !!! And of course I am so looking forward to Earth Hour. Let's turn off our lights on 28 March 2009 8.30pm-9.30opm. Yes, LOCAL TIME, no matter where you are, Local Time !!!


Guys, come on !!!
Let's work out something to fight global warming. Don't feel meaningless, just do it, contribute and do something for the Earth since you had consumed it since you born and you will consume it in future !!! If you think you are the only one in your family who support this campaign, and you don't get any positive response about it, just don't give up, cos you are not alone, and you are not useless, cos we need you, the earth need you.

So stay tuned for my updates about my bbq party !!!


=)

Blueberry Cheese Tart

It's Saturday again.
But I am so not feeling to cook nor bake. Laziness, my soul seems not with my body now. What's pop in my mind now is kind of sin. SIN !!! Yes, S.I.N !!! I am so wanna shopping, but the problems is I don't have anyone here want to shop with me, everyone is busy for assignments, working, busy for exam revision. Arghh.... I am so bored here...

Ok, since I'm not gonna cook or bake today, so I just post something that I bake recently lar..
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Guess What ? I just got myself a reason to shop, I think I need to buy some recipes books, I need something new to inspire me to bake something~ Hehehehe...


Blueberry Cheese Tart !!!! Not again?????

During my birthday, I had baked this cheese tart just for fun and to fill up my times since I had applied leave on that day. What else can I do at home other than baking or cooking?
Blueberry Cheese Tart always be my recommendation to my friends who wanted to try baking. It's not difficult at all to bake this lil tart, just abit step-ie cos you need to seperate the process into 2 days time or even more if you don't wanna bake everything in one shot. I've tried before to bake this tart in one day, you really need time !!!! Indeed, the recipe is just as easy as you fried the mata kerbau egg, no need skills at all, beginners can make this well !!! I swear !!!



Blueberry Cheese Tart




Ingredients

- Pre-baked Tart Crust
- Cream Cheese 250gm
- Butter 20gm
- Icing Sugar 60gm
- Egg 1nos
- Lemon Juice 1/2 tablespoon

* Mix all the ingredients except Tart Crust until it becomes a smooth batter, and that is your cream cheese filings.


Pre-baked Tart Crust

I baked this the night before I make the fillings for this tart. You can bake as much as you want, and the fillings is up to you... Egg tart, fruits tart, bacon and egg tart, chocolate tart, cheese tart, strawberry tart, whatever you want. It is more convenient if you bake this tart crust in advance, saving your time and also reduce your tireness.

Tart Crust
- Flour 250gm
- Butter 65gm
- Margerine 65gm
- Egg 1/2 nos of Gred 'A' Egg
- Icing Sugar 65gm

* Mix all the ingredients together.
* Wrap the dough with plastic wrap, refrigerate for half an hour until ready use.
* Roll out enough of dough in to baking mould.
* Press and shape it with the baking mould.
* Bake it with 190'C or till its cooked.




1. Place some blueberry jam on the tart crust.




2. Add in some cream cheese fillings.




3. Apply a lil drop of blueberry jam on the top.




4. Use a toothpick to decorate as your desire.

5. I usually make it as a star. Just use your toothpick to place centre of the blueberry jam, then swipe outwards.




6. Bake it with 190'C for 10 minutes or till it cooked.

7. Remove the tar from oven and let it sit for cooling, refrigerate your tart for 30-60 minutes before serve.

Ok, Start makan.



I baked the cheese tart at night, but in the daytime, FG brought me out to makan only. Then I bought doughnuts for the kids and for myself.

DOUGHNUTS !!!! I wish to fry doughnuts... Yala, doughnuts is not bake by oven, indeed you need to fry the dough in a high temperature of hot oil in a wok !!!!!!!! If you don't believe, go q-up at Big Apple or J.Co to have a look ~

Ok lar, I got to make up myself first, going out to get some recipe collections at book store... shopping shopping shopping shopping.....

Happy Weekend everybody ~

=)

Turn Off Your Light !!!!!!!!!!

What makes you think about when you see the following ?

A. Recycle Bag

B. Recycle sign.

C. EARTH HOUR Banner

My answer: "Sigh, people are saying that I am idiot~"

I don't know have you guys notice that recently when you are watching your favourite tv show, when the time comes to the advertisement break, there is suddenly 2 ppl were wearing black colour T-Shirt and talking to each other, when you feeling to ignore the clip, then u walk away to washroom, looking for some snacks, call your loved one, and when you are back and sit in front of your TV again, then you will see a totally black background with some words there "60 Hour Earth, Turn Off Your Light, 28 March 2009, 8.30pm-9.30pm". When you are totally out of your mind, thinking about it "apa la ni? what is that?", will you pull your heavy butt away from your TV and stick your butt in front of your lappie and search about this message? Hmm, I am sure, you will tell yourself ,"Aiya, later lar......."

Yes, I am the one, I told myself later larrrr.... I still remember the first version that I watched is Reshmono and Pete Teo's version, then the next version is Sheikh Muzzafar & Alex Yoong's version. What makes me think about the off light thingy is really cool. Instead, it could be some kind of scene that amaze the kids. I remember when I was 11, my house area got no electric supply for almost 3 hours, me and my sis with our neighbours were so excited, and we all running around the street, playing this and that cos our parents and some other neightbours also chit-chat outside the house.... So I am sure kids will definitely enjoy in darkness~ LOL... Ahem, back to topic, so after I watched the both version and feeling excited on it, I told my family and friends about this activity, and I found some clips on youtube and the earth hour website.

It is not a stupid thing, it's about to show that we are united to fight for global warming. It's everyone responsibilities. You don't have to donate your money, you don't have to waste your time, but you just have to take out one of your finger, then switch off your light at 28 March 2009, Local time 8.30pm - 9.30pm. Easy right? Yes, as easy as you eat, you walk, you jump bla bla bla... So have you notice my question at the beginning of this post? so what is your answer? Can you see my answer after my question? Hmm, Yes, I was told that I am stupid and idiot. Yes, really!! I swear that people claimed that I am stupid to spread the switch light activity and the recycle message.

I tell my friends and my family, If possible, please don't take so much plastic bag, use recycle bag when you go to market lar...or maybe you can da bao your food with your tupperware lar.. bla bla bla... don't smoke so much lar.. bla bla... But with one conclusion, "Aiyo, I don't use, other people will use it also lar, I don't do it, others also will do lar..." I told the, "So why don't we all pass the message around ? So hard mer?" They answer me," Yerrr, very odd lor, if I buy things no plastic bag, I wear so nice but carry a ugly recycle bag........................." See, so many excuse... What I meant is not asking you totally don't use ma.... like the above recycle sign, REDUCE !!!! REDUCE kawan !!!!! Even FG, I told him about the earth hour thingy, he asked back me,"One hour ar? Yerrr... why must be night time? Daytime cannot mer? why must switch off the light" Some friends of mine said,"Why so mafan, so leceh?" " Aiyo, not so free lorrr... I got bunch of assignments lorr..""Chi sin, who will do that?"

Hmm, I am squeezing my brain juice just to attract you guys to run this programme ~

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OK, here comes an idea....

1. Spread EARTH HOUR to the world, tell your friends and family about this, click here, here or here.
2. Take out your camera, your HP, whatever that can capture your house or maybe your room or your surrounding during 28 March 2009, Local Time 8.30pm - 9.30pm.
3. Send me the link where I can view your pictures or Email me your pictures with the title of EARTH HOUR and the location of your pictures~

Erm, I don't have any idea about prizes yet. Maybe you guys can suggest me something. Hmm, maybe my idea sucks, just ignore it, but please please please...

TURN OFF YOUR LIGHT

28 MARCH 2009, LOCAL TIME 8.30pm-9.30pm.










THANK YOU !!!