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speechlessss

but i feel to pour acid to someone...


true story will be update later...

cos i'm feeeling to write something but not much thing i wan to write

aiks.... i have to say i'm glad to have my friends here...

i know i cant cry in this moment...
i have to be strong...

yesterday just told you guys that I got the ball from the other player and I dunno wat to do,
now the manager of the team are screwing me in front of all the player
but behind me ~
why are these ppl so irritating?
why cant they just let the others to do things that I dunno,
why they expect me to do then they tease me in behind?

2 months bonus? I rather dun wan,
increment? i rather reject now...
I'm feeling to type the resignation letter now...
but when i think of my family, my car, my house...
then i ask myself, how can you survive if you resign?

He expect me the full set of account for past three years and pass it to him in one month,
I know I'm sucks cos I cant make it on time,
but i dun think its totally my fault, he ask me to do this and that,
I was ordered to travel here and there just to complete some of my admin stuff...
and now he complain about me behind of me but in front of all my seniors... What is it about?
I was very mad, and of course very sad...
is this what i get after my effort? is this what i get after my wholeheartly services?
I told my senior, if he wan to complain, and he's not happy about anything of me? why dun he scold and complain right in front of me? i'm so embarassing because of his stupid and childish action, is this the way to be a BOSS????

And now, what I need is Budweiser, i really need some alcohol.

S T R E S S S S SS SS SS

S T R E S S

it makes you cant breathe

when all of you said stressssssss for your examss and assignmentss...
but i have to scream out loud ~
"WHAT KIND OF STRESS IS IT? YOU WERE JUST RESPONSIBLE TO YOURSELF !!!"
>.< !!!
I cant stop myself for screaming that...
Sorry guys, I might mentally out of control !!!
So if you guys wanna punch me, kick me, slap me, just give me a call...
I'm willing to let you make me pain...
I'm not here to "dak zui" all of you,
but in realistic, i do think the career stress is torture-nessssssss than the study stresss....

When you are employed, whatever you do are responsible to your BOSS and COMPANY ~
when you do anything wrong, it would be the company or your boss have to face the outcome...
Erm, you can say, when you do mistakes, you have to reponsible to your company and others...

When comes to study, whatever mistakes are on your study,
you doing not well on your exam, then it will be your own business lo...
cos you might not study well, you might enjoy alot and forgot to do revision...
I dunno... but the conclusion is, you are the one who make it like tat... and you have to face it on your own, but when it comes to your work, you do mistakes, it will affect the company, and you are the "TOH SUI GA" ...
conclusion, you only responsible to yourself and will not affect others...


It is between who you responsible to ~ yourself ??? or others ???

and now I'm in the trouble !!!
I admit I did not do well, but it is all my best...
I dunno how to do it better, cos i dun find a correct way, and I have no ppl to guide me ~
and the problem is the company's faith is in my hand... WTF !!!
I wanna do it better, but i dun think i can handle well physically and mentally...
everyone kick the ball to me... and i'm the one who strike it... damn, no skills and no experience...
how am i handle it all?
WTF WTF WTF WTF !!!

life seems to be black and white in sudden ~
Slap me if you want, i need some pain ~

Thanks for lighten up my days =)

After a few grey days,
pig shuenn bright up my day this morning with this funny clips...
enjoy guys...

you never know

Sometimes even how much you try, the outcome is still the sam,
cos you are not the decision maker.

To Someone that I care so much, and you know it's you,

I'm so glad that I can help you so much,
but the most important is,
the outcome is not beyond my control.

You will never see how hard that I helped,
you will never know how i need to act to be such thick face,
you will never know how my heart hurts like you,
Cos you dunno how tough my way to go...

Love, Jamie

Guys, sorry for always complaining,
I know I wasn't work well on my blog and use the same function of a blog,
but i just wish to let the one know things that I dun dare to voice out.