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百吃不厌的韩国泡菜汤 Kimchi Jiggae

在这个时候upload食物照还真的很累人一下。

多得那块饼干惹的祸，半夜三更竟然po了几张美食照，过分~~~

我也不甘示弱的来了一张泡菜汤~

这是昨天煮的，因为被人放飞机，没得看戏去，我告诉阿猪，我要煮一大锅的泡菜汤解闷~~

照片拍得不是很好，我连edit的基本功也没有~ 

这个泡菜汤，我就是百吃不厌。

每次老板娘带我吃韩国餐，我必定会叫这个，要不然就叫Soondubu Jiggae 海鲜豆腐汤。

这一次买的泡菜不是超市卖的那一种厂装的，

这一次是用了办公室楼下的韩国便利店卖的自家泡菜~~

味道道地得不行，超顺口的~~~

所以这一个agar agar煮出来的泡菜汤也和上一次煮出来的味道大大不同~

不是我夸口，真的，这一次的真的很好吃~~~

一大锅的泡菜汤，不一下子就吃空空了~

还好我有保留了一些带去办公室当午餐~

今午微波了一下，味道更上一层楼~

bery good !!!

红彤彤的，超开胃~~~~~

材料：

韩国泡菜 - 一碗

泡菜汁 - 随意，嗜辣的可以加一碗~

豆腐 - 一碗，切丁

洋葱 - 一粒，切片

金针菇 - 一包，切段

青葱 - 一小把，切段

蒜米 - 两掰，切片

油 - 一汤匙

猪肉片 - 随意

上汤 - 一大碗 

盐 - 少许

胡椒粉 - 少许

煮法：

蒜米和洋葱爆香，加入泡菜微炒，

大火加入猪肉片快炒，

然后倒入上汤，小火慢煮，

微滚后，加入豆腐和金针菇，

待全部材料熟透，加入食盐和胡椒粉调味，

熄火完成~

这是超级容易煮的版本啦~~~

因为不是自制的泡菜，如果要找泡菜汁，我觉得还挺困难的，

我的一大盒泡菜，才只有那区区的一小碗，

我也不敢取太多，要留一些给下一次嘛~

Hesitated again ~~~~

FG birthday is around the corner !!!!  

I was thinking how to celebrate it and what kind of pressie for him~ 

Shall I held a surprise party for him? where he don't know the existence of the party ~ Woohoo... it's gonna be a lot of tasks to accomplish the mission~~~ @.@ inform friends, pakat with them, decide the venue, planning his arrival... I doubt that I can do all these alone or not?  

Or a 3 course meal prepared by me??? @.@ Hoh !!! Are you sure that I can do this too ???? But I have lots of idea in my mind now ~ what kind of appetizer? what kind of main course? what kind of desert? Just i need to suggestions, cos it's too much of ideas come across lorr... 

Headache larrr... 

Which one should I choose? ? 

Surprise party? or Homecook celebration ? 

Every gift is priceless

Last weekend, me and FG went shopping at Mid Valley. We pass by a photo shop. I saw there are tripods display on the rack, but I didn't went in to view the tripod and price checking. I wanted it long long time ago since Porku advise me to get a tripod in case my hand shaking problem effects the pictures quality. Even though I longing for it some times, but I didn't even make survey on it. I guess it should be 100-200 maybe? cos I view the Sony catalog, the tripod that suit to my camera model is about that price. So when we pass by the shop, I told FG I want it badly, but I don't know the price. FG just keep silent and stare at me like "shopaholic !!! Pls stop on unnecessary stuff~ "


But few days ago, FG called me and told me he bought something for me. I keep on guessing what he gonna present me??? Curiosity, excitement keep spinning around... I just can't wait to see my present !!!!!!!!! Till Thursday night, right after finished my work, I called FG to have a drink. I just can't wait anymoreeeeee ~


When he reached, I saw him holding a present wrapped with gift paper in a kinda long box. I just can't wait for it anymoreeeeee.. I quickly unwrapped the box.....

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OMG !!! I'm kinda touched when the moment I saw the gift !!!! If it's not a public place, I could possibly drop my tears... I never think that he bought me that. Until now, even I'm staring at the box, but i still can't imagine he actually bought me a tripod which I told him when we were shopping in the mall ~ forgive me, if i sounds too excited... paiseh =')


FG told me it's kinda cheap, he hope that I don't mind of it. Poor FG, I'm very happy and proud of you actually.The price doesn't bother me much, as long as it's from you, it's worth it all...

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Oh my, I like gifts, presents or whatever that anyone give me ~~ Yes, I mean EVERYTHING. Who doesn't like things that not gonna cost you a penny at all~ Even you gonna buy me a Mentos, or maybe 10sen each of HACKS candy, or maybe spend me teh o ais limao, i promise, I will remember you forever... Serious ~ It don't have to be a very expensive stuff you see, I appreciate people that treat me good, that's all. Doesn't matter with the value of the gift, what I treasure most is the heart and the efforts from the person. I mean it.

Happy Weekend ~

101010 is a good good day !

I read back my previous entries.
Oh my, it's so potong steam hor ? It's like here become my 'tree hole' a place for people got no place to complain. I decided to put on some happy yet cheerful post.

101010 is a special day. It is because the date only read once in a century. Although me and FG never celebrate about it, but I can say we had the best weekend among this few weeks. This is a day where the both of us never leave each other alone. =)  It got no special celebration or special places to go nor any special meal for the both of us, but every minute is a gift with warmest heart attached.

From the morning we woke up, we smile to each other. We had our homecook lunch then we went to Sg Wang to recall some 'lalazai lalamui' memory =p Then had the famous curry fish ball, 'shark fin' soup, fried pork intestine with refreshing sour plum calamansi juice as our afternoon tea. Of cos not to forget some windows shopping. Oh ya, I bought a jacket which strongly recommend by FG. =D Then head back home to have a nap and homecook dinner.

Oh ya, not to forgot a gift from FG which he attempt to give me a surprise. =p

I've been complaining to FG that my watch had run out of battery, although I just replace a new battery last few months, but it suddenly stop running again. And I hint him for a new watch, cos the current one had been with me for 6 yrs... I wan a watch from him, so whenever I look at the time, it can reminds me of him in anywhere ~~~ FG wasn't pay any attention on me when the time I complained to him. He just keep silence, until a day, he said yes!!! "Ok dear, I'll get you one in a day K?" he replied with lack of patient but in a polite smile. My dear FG, I'll never forget the way you talk to me ~ =)

But I am very naughty as everyone know, or I should say girls always like to pretend like they don't really happy in anyway, cos they want more concerns and more sweet talk =p do ya agree? SO, i replied him "cheh, you say only, you never do one ~~~~~"

I never he really bought me this !
He gave me on 091010, so I pandai pandai make it as my 101010 gift lar~

Have a nice week ahead  =)

长女

我在想，
一个人的生存意义何在？
以前小时候总是渴望长大，
就因为可以自由自在的往外跑，
做自己喜欢做的事。
但是长大了的现在，
原来一切都不是当初幻想的来得那么美好。

长大了原来不是一件得意的事，
就因为是长女，很多时候都要照顾家里人的心情。

很多时候我真的不想扛上长女的责任，
没有什么孝义与否，只因为我是长女，
我多么不想自己是长女，
直到我接受命运的安排，我不得逃避的同时，
我效力于家里的事情，好像一直的变本加厉，我难以呼吸。
我做的一切比其他人都是应份的，
所以很多人都觉得我的努力仿佛不需要那卑微的赏识，
全都因为，那是我的本份！！！

我也有我的人生，我也有我的计划，
可是往往计划赶不及变化，人算不如天算，
我所有的计划都被逼搁置，
如果正在阅读的你当面告诉我你觉得这不是牺牲，而是本份，
我想我真的会崩溃大哭。

为什么我的牺牲就变成是本份，
就算是，为什么我不是被赞赏的哪一个？
为什么我不是那个心不甘，情不愿的时候被哄的哪一个？？

工作已经很累了，
回到家在所不惜的帮忙，
就被当着是应份。
办不到的事情就被当成是自私，
然后要对着污漆麻黑的臭脸，
好像我不能为自己的时间做出安排。

很累，我很想做到好像外国人那样，
不理会家里的事情，
只顾自己的生活。
但是我办不到，
我选择了中国人的精神，
孝义。

但是我也想要呼吸的空间，
为何我就是没有？
为何牺牲的是我？
为何被牺牲了，我没有得到认同？

我无法释怀~

给风儿的留言

亲爱的风儿，

我把我的思念交托给你，你是否已经替我转交给他呢？

好想他 。。。

超想他 。。。

风儿，你可以代替我看护他吗？

我要他晚上睡得好好的，

我要他不要踢被子，

我要他不被冷气冷着，

我要他准时起床上飞机。

我更想要飞扑向他，紧紧地抱着他。

超级想念他的大肚腩~

=((((((((

鱼儿       

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Passionate / Lemon Butter Cake

I think I baked this on end of May. It was a Saturday, it's my baking day as usual. Mom said I've been ages for not baking. Yes, I admit. It's been ages... I found myself suddenly lost the passion on baking nor cooking. Maybe I've enough of "no comment" ? Or maybe I lost some of my fans? Yes, the twins and their brother.

Although other fans are still around, but I still doesn't feel proud on my baking outcome. Indeed, there's always someone critic my baking outcome is not up to standard... Critics do spoil my mood and pouring cold water to my burning passion. Who do not feel the same way like what I feel?

Confidence is a good thing, but over confidence will stop you improving. That's why I always remind myself to not over confidence on anything I had. Somehow I still manage to keep baking although critics remain. I tried my very best to try out various recipes, just to keep someone smile on my hard works, I meant not on praising, but at least acceptable or no comment. But still, no matter how much I tried, critics still remain unchanged. You don't get me wrong, the critics wasn't from my FG. Indeed FG always giving me honest comments where things turn out real good, he will never stop himself to praise me ~ =)

Okay, stop on my grandmother fish story. Lex see this.

It seems too thick !!! As I know, it should be some lemon glaze on top of the cake, but I skipped that.

This recipe is just nice to me, it's soft ~ and 'juicy'??? The surface is crunchy than what I expected. The flavor is very full, I didn't use any essence or flavoring fragrance. The natural ingredients always comes out better than chemical goods.

But mom still not satisfy, cos she request a banana cake, but I turned it to lemon cake... blek =D

P/S:  Butter cake is my first fish-made cake in my lifetime !!! I'm glad that I still manage to bake it yet no failed. *touch wood*  *touch wood*  *touch wood*  =p

S.I.C.K

Someone just told me that he'll sure fall sick during the 7th month of Chinese calendar without fail.

I'm not sure do I behave the same or not, but this year, I fall sick easily compare to the past ~

I'm SICK ~ yes, I am... 

For the pass 2 days, I was attacked by migraine, gastric and I have no idea body ache attacked me as well. 

I have no idea yet no explanation to myself, cos since the first day of 7th month, people around me started to fall sick... including my beloved family members... But lucky thing is we're not fall sick in the same time, which mean we take turn to take care each other... Thank God =)  

That's why my blog been dragged for weeks... forgive my laziness sickness, I've got really no mood to cook or bake, that's why I got no idea what to share with my readers... as if I've got alot... =p

I hereby to please my readers.. Bear with me just for some time, I'll be back when I'm fine... 

Homemade Kuih Keria

这一个造型很像甜甜圈的马来糕点是妈妈其中最爱的糕点

而我一向都不那么嗜甜，所以马来糕点绝对不在我的最爱名单里。

在这里看到了这个食谱，二话不说就立刻把食谱给列印下来再存进“手指”里

再选一个星期六把这个糕点弄给妈妈吃~

这个食谱的份量刚刚好可以一份做成十颗~

那天吩咐妈妈帮我买了番薯就动手开工了~

但是唯一不满意的是那个外层的糖浆~

我煮得不够浓，水分也太多了，

所以不像马来挡口卖的一样，也不像以上食谱的成品一样~

我的成品黏黏的~

不过妈妈可吃得很高兴，还一直跟我说很好吃，真是高兴死了~

Homemade recipe成品的确与外卖的成品来的不同

毕竟是材料下足，不像外面卖的都不足料而且还要靠化学品来充量

所以这个糕点我还能接受，因为食谱的改进，成品还真的很没有了外卖的面粉味

我也忍不住的吃了一整颗，要是在马来挡买回家，我肯定是不会吃的~

不是过渡期

有人问我，为什么总是要夜夜笙歌，

不能平静的，独自的度过每一天的夜晚。

老实说日子其实不难过，

只是我比较有要求，

我不想要空闲的时间是荒废的。

平时白天工作面对着四面墙壁，

面子书陪伴着，网上电台播着歌，

独自的把公司上上下下的事情办妥。

老实说，我真的不想回到家也是独自的躲在房间，

听着电台播放的歌曲，开着面子书，阅读小说。

这是因为年轻的呐喊吗？所以我才那么的野心勃勃的~

looking young

Dear Blog,

I had a gathering on last Friday. Without hesitation, I had my fringe back. Everyone praising me looking young because of the shorten fringe ~

So, this is how do I look now ~

So, do I look younger ? =p

时晴时阴

今天和两位昔日的姐妹用餐去~

把今天最热门的话题动物给吞进肚子里~ 

我还是不喜欢寿司王， 

价钱不合理，味道又没什么特别。

比起寿司三脉，寿司王应该在菜单里再加一些更日风的选择 。

这间分行坐落在我公司附近高档的商业区，

比起其他的餐厅，它的客人真的少得可怜。

也没有什么让我值得惊喜的东西让我记录下来。

加油吧，寿司王~~~ 

路。 我

最近发生了一连串的事情，

我从不能接受到缓缓接受，

我不得不说的是，

我很佩服自己，

我佩服自己的信任，

我佩服自己的抗压能力，

我更佩服的是我的抉择。

it's not demanding

Gals are easy to please.

Sweet talk will replace everything.

青色心情

从小到大，我都是公认的马来妹，因为我吃猪肉时很挑剔的。如果那一块猪肉被我咬进口里是有一种搔味，我会把整盘猪肉给banned掉。
还有啊，不晓得是我心理作用还是什么的~ 我总是觉得肉类吃多的话，整个人就好像很慵懒。如果吃一顿饭是没有蔬菜的，我会浑身不自在，总觉得好像少了些什么的。所以每次去吃肉骨茶，我没有可能不叫青菜。

这一个沙拉是去年某一晚的宵夜，其实我准备的沙拉都大同小异，所以拍了这一个沙拉照，王后的沙拉都没上镜了。有好多个晚上的宵夜，我都为自己准备沙拉，要不然我那3不5时的减肥计划中也会有沙拉出现，沙拉最适合我这个一天到晚都馋嘴而又要减肥的最佳拍档了！！！

我准备的沙拉大致上都用了这一个dressing, 是一个我觉得满开胃的dressing,所以我的沙拉分量还蛮大的。

• butterhead 
• bacon
• hard boiled egg 
• apple

Dressing 

• mayo - 3 tbsp
• tomato sauce - 1 tbsp
• chili sauce - 1 tbsp
• pepper  - a lil bit
• salt - a lil bit
• honey - a lil bit to control sweetness, optional 

Chilled the butterhead and hard boiled egg in the fridge.
Bacon, fried till crispy.
Apple, cut in cube and mix with some lemon juice. Soak it in water if you dun have lemon juice.
Stir well the dressing.
Mixed all the ingredients with the dressing n served.

我的他

如果问我在世上谁能让我又喜又忧，

那就莫过于许先生了。

Fattening brunch

It was a hot Saturday

The weather kills my mood

As usual, I will plan what to bake or cook on weekend

but definitely not today

The weather kills my mood and it helps the lazy bug to grow bigger on my body

I wish to just sleep in my air conditioning room

But I couldn't do so as mom and dad had left to Singapore for a 2d1n trip

I have to do houseworks and of course have to make dinner and lunch for myself

This is not suppose to be a lunch but it's a brunch 

cos I skipped the breakfast by sitting on the sofa watching AFC since I woke up

Seeking ingredients in the fridge, I find nothing can cook for a delicious yet simple brunch

I found some shrimp burger patties and bacon only.

It's not a good sign, it means I have to get some ingredients for dinner as well 

With only shrimp burger patties and bacon, how to turn it into a full plate of brunch?

No idea, I saw some potatoes and onions in the basket, so i turned it to a so called western brunch~

And I named it Fattening Brunch.

I dun think its suitable for my diet plan as welll

Guilty to consume the portions in my plate.

If you are having urine acid, this is really a no-no idea for you, it's acidic. 

We have fried bacon, onion omelet, potato wedges and last but not least for the shrimp patty. 

FG came over right after I finished cook, he make some toasts for the patty. 

Happy weekend.

=)

Golden Cheeseball

话说今天我和阿猪说我要再重新出发

和大家分享一下我的作品

所以我特地打开了我的masak masak album选一下哪一个应该上头阵

左看右看

选了这道我最满意的appertizer 来个welcome post 吧

就先来个开胃菜吧~

这个应该是N年前的作品

之前都没有po过

只在面子书里po过照片而已

这个是mini size 的可乐饼

因为要方便小孩子享用，所以把可乐饼原本的椭圆形给改照成鱼丸size

从中的材料也可以自由发挥，

我觉得如果家里要作3 course meal的话，这道应该是beginner的appertizer

容易到不行，就好像我们小时玩的黏土一样

还留了一些给鱼公呢~

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材料

马铃薯 - 3 颗

cheddar cheese - 大概5 片左右

bacon - 3大片

洋葱 - 1颗

面粉 - 1 碗

蛋液- 1小碗

面包糠 - 1碗

马铃薯去皮蒸熟，加些牛油，盐还有胡椒粉压成泥备用

cheddar cheese 切成粒状

把bacon 和洋葱切成粒状微火炒香

把bacon,洋葱参入薯泥里，搅拌均匀再取出少许搓成fish ball size，把cheddar cheese 当成是fillings塞进薯球里

准备3个大碗各装面粉，蛋液，还有面包糠

把薯球顺序沾上面粉，蛋液还有面包糠然后大火炸至金黄色即可。

E.M.P.T.Y

As what in the picture, I'm feeling empty.

It speaks out all my thought.

还是感恩

因为我是双鱼座，所以很多时候，我可以是乐观的，我也可以是悲观的。

从懂事以来，我承认很多时候，我都把自己藏在那卑微凄惨的世界里，为的只是需要那份该死的同情。但是就在前几年加入了阿毛，认识了许多来自地球多个角落的网友。对，就是网友。

但是我很肯定的就是，这些网友不再是我们所谓的网上之交那么的简单了。我们已经晋升了不再陌生的朋友。我不敢相信，我真的不敢相信，我是这么的幸运。 就是这一群这么真诚的朋友，我那藏在卑微凄惨的世界里的我竟然自自然然的走出来了。我没有像以前那么的胆小怕事，虽然比别人还是差一大载，但是这一切是真的。我不敢相信，我们这一群朋友，就算是一顿饭聚在一起，真的比起那其他364天来得更充实。

我怀念以前一上班就赶着打开电脑等着每个人的update,

我怀念以前和阿猪的午餐，

我怀念以前我们时常在阿毛里废的日子，哪怕是只有一篇无理头的文章，

我记得阿萨的junior在晒太阳，

我怀念的还有很多很多。。。。

或许我们都长大了，一切都改变了，但是有时候我真的不得谢天谢地，这群朋友虽然不是时常见面，但是我们的喜怒哀乐还真的不需要说出口，大家就是那么的心知肚明。或许我们那一年就只有见那么一次的面，但是我们在那一顿饭真的还是会喋喋不休。自问当下，我还有什么不满足的呢？

感谢老天爷，原来我不是被忽略的那一个，原来我不是什么都没有，至少山穷水尽的时候，还有一群围绕在握身边的家人和朋友。

感恩~

under construction

Due to the reconstruction of this blog, the author will be away until further notice.

Be patient ok ? Or u might wan to leave me comment ??? I'll be very likely to your comments.

Stay tuned to the new FISHU ~

BO GAI ~

Pisces baby's big day coming very soon ~

My dear porku countdown her wedding album shooting trip on her msn tagline~

2 days to go ~

it will be 4th of March, which is my birthday as well ~

2 days to go, i have to say babye to 23 ~ and i'm one step closer to 25. People say age is a weapon to kill a woman. I used to refuse to agree this statement, but now, I just can't refuse it anymore, I have to admit it. And these years, I started to worry about it. I realized that I should start using aging products before everything's late.

Talk about my birthday, I wish this year will not be the same like last year ~ Hopefully it will not be another regretful birthday. I'm not gonna demand any celebrations from friends or relatives, but I do wish to have a perfect dinner with FG. Same like previous year, I can't apply leave to get a well rest at home or chilling out to some shopping malls. Just like normal days, I need to work ~~~~ Arrrgggghhh ~~~ Life is not always on my way...

FG asked me how shall we celebrate... Horrrrrrrrr... This is a difficult Q and I dun really wan to answer even answers were in my mind ~ Yes, I use plural for "answer" ! Cos I have a lot of ideas which I know I'm not gonna do it all in one day ~ More on it, I am a Pisces baby ~ I always expect romantic surprise and I hate things happen by my own request ~ FG still can't read my mind, horrrrr... Accept it, cos he is a scorpion ~ So if things not gonna request by my own, I know it wont be happen anyway ~ This is not a COMPLAIN ~ but to tell myself to accept the fact that Pisces dreaming was way tooooooo farrrrrrrr and Scorpion is a cool bu sexy person ~~~~~~~~ But they do matching to each other according to lots of horoscope books.

God, please make my working day goes smooth so I can be home on time on this coming Thursday. =))))))

情人节

2010年的情人节就这样无声无息的过了~~~

我们的第5个情人节

一样。。。

没有惊喜

没有花束

没有礼物

没有节目

只有

埋怨，

无奈，

羡慕。

我应该再寄望下一个情人节吗？

黎明

人啊，总是有喜有悲；

人生，总是起起跌跌。

我们能埋怨多少呢？

与其浪费我们那有钱也买不到的时间来埋怨东东南南西西北北，

倒不如接受自己的人生，自己的现况，未来还未知数，人生还未到尽头。

好啦，我承认啦， 我有时也很悲观，半夜还是偶尔会躲在某一个角落流泪，

外加一个大枕头让我放声呐喊， 但是我很厉害哦，哭完了之后，

我还会自己安慰自己 ！！！ 我真的不是一条普通笨的鱼。

“因为黑夜，所以我看见晴天”

我最喜欢这一句了，还真的很贴切，很写实。

以前还很笨，很幼稚的时候，总会自己问自己这句有够无聊的quote是虾米意属~

还会自己回答自己，“hello, 人家的人生永远都没有黑夜的， 只有晴天和彩虹~”

就因为这个无知兼自以为是的自答， 我足足活在几年的黑夜~

后来就因为看了很多因果书籍，再过滤老妈告诉我的故事，再再外加一些连续剧，

其实我只不过一直埋怨黑夜，却没有想到晴天根本就是在黑夜之后才会出现啊~

白天和黑夜的那个交集，其实只在于我们怎样去领悟。

人生啊，也一样~

或许你觉得当下的生活遇到瓶颈，凡事好像都不顺利，

但是为何不去释怀一下，如果没有寂静冷清的黑夜，你又怎样体验那暖和微香的阳光？

事情总是来得匆忙，当下一定会来个措手不及，这是理说当然的。

当下会不开心是一定的啦，但是一定要告诉自己，

就是因为这些阻隔物，跳过了就结束了。

没有吃亏，至少我的人生还多了一个故事，我的人生不是空白的。

或许有些事情需要较长的时间来消化，但是一样的，

这种考验一定会为我们的智慧加分~

虽然此时此刻，人生中还是有很多遗憾，当下不至于无忧无虑，

但是我还在黑夜里等待黎明，等待曙光放明的那一刻~

惰性成迷

惨了

这下惨了

觉得自己开始懒惰起来了

对什么都不感兴趣

就一直横尸走肉的过生活

以往的目标好像停顿了

哪一条路才是自己要的呢？

我不得不承认， 鱼公真的宠我得过于离谱了

这下好了，人变懒了

阿鱼，加油！

最近总是觉得气势不如虹

但是还是不遂我那馋嘴的坏习惯

这下可好了

刚刚和友人starbuck-ed

回到家肚子痛到要生要死

上大号， 结果便便全都是浮在水面的， 恶心~

证明了咖啡也有排便的用处~

不晓得是不是PMS的关系

最近总是觉得很懊恼

做什么事情都很pek cek

尤其是公司的事情，一波未停，一波又起，

tasks一直排着队，搞得我很累

也不想和谁多讲话，话忽然变少，

身心疲累，心情也跟着变孬

甚至连最爱的烘培也被我搁置了

或许我敏感吧

再加上早前家里的装修

或许感觉已不再了

但是我还是很努力的生活，很努力的让自己比上一秒钟更为开心

我答应，

下个entry我要再show off 我的talent ~

再次让潜水的你们继续支持我~~~

=))))))

典型双鱼

还记得以前小学，每逢年尾时，老师会分派每人一份年终报告卡，不是成绩册哦，

确确实实是一张报告卡。

卡上有分别记载了从一年级到六年级的终年报告，终年的平均成绩，年纪总名次，

其实我的成绩还真的马马虎虎，不算标青，但也不是成绩满江红的那一类，

事实我的名次就是限于第二班~

看回这张显黄的报告册，我不得不承认，我的确是个典型的双鱼座女孩。

(所以我还真的很喜欢别人叫我阿鱼，够贴切~)

双鱼座的特性就是大家公认的爱幻想，悲观，凡事都是往最坏的打算。

从志愿栏那里一看，我的first choice of ambition就是作家，再来就是教师，最后就是工程师。

但是从现在的阿鱼来看，没错，link 到~

到现在我还是一样喜欢写作，家里的奖座还是写作比赛尤多。

就是因为那些惊人的想象能力

朋友们不得不承认我的幻想能力真的不是普通的厉害

所以，我还是我

我还是那个典型的双鱼女

我还是阿鱼

接踵而来

最近真的失意到不行

其实失意的还不就是工作

除了工作之外，其他的生活细节，

我都过得特别充实，

鱼公虽然有时很不听话，可是他还是会在我不高兴的时候迁就我

感恩~

家人还是那么的维护我，

感恩 ~

朋友们还是那么的体贴我，

感恩 ~

最近 工作上的不如意事

接踵而来

以我平时开朗的性格，乐观的思想

都不能随欲而安

老实说

我真的累了

我不是那种为所欲为，无力取闹的人

凡事我都能忍

可是我真的忍无可忍了~

从前， 我能笨笨的忍

可是现在在这么熟练的工作环境之下

我真的不能就这样忍气吞声

为什么认错的那个是我？

我累了

这次我轰出去了

士可杀，不可辱

如果我不是双鱼座

我就不会时常都缺乏安全感

我就不会时常都忐忑不安

我就不会一直想要有个人陪

我就不会想东想西

我就不会犹豫

我就不需要努力的伪装自己

我也不用一直被爱的卷缩在某个角落

我也不用过度关心别人

我也不用怜惜别人胜过自己